Reducing my waste time in life
It wasn’t just the thought of visiting other countries, bump with a strange people, with a strange place , or do fancy things as what-normal-tourist- do bothered me, but the fact that it was happening in my list of to-do this year. Yet to accomplish.
When life gives you a breath, should you just bear with it, and thanks for another day you were alive for your tomorrow ? what are you going to do about it ?
Well, as mine ,I’m just crazy about many wonder things. Its not my hobby to traveling around, I do it for my living. It’s about reducing my waste time in life, like bother about how people should feel toward what I did, and to reduce my time of complaining about what people did.
Keep rocking in a free world
Smile people, New day has been born
I’m wake up around 1030am.Not that bad, well, its consider pretty early for me , earliest of the week perhaps… How bout you? Many things to do, and i hope to continue my sleep longer earlier. But i cant affort it today, many things on the list, The sun climbs higher in the sky now..It make me feel more warm, till all things clearly seen..Wake up, azriq, wake up…a new day has been born.
Is there anything bump to your mind today, things to do ? yeah, some sort of unfinish business kind of things ..Mate, Smile, the new day just started.Some question to think together…
What you will do to make today better than yesterday?
Will you be more relax today?
Will you finish up things that you plan yesterday (for today)?
Well, As I assumed your question will be longer than mine. Im not fancy to guess. Just bear in mind, try your best avoid anyone that has an extreme potential of delaying your progression, thats the key of the day.
Smile for your day, keep rocking, in a free world.
Absent for many reasons
Maybe not many of you, realise who is Azriq Fawani. Well, I just speak my mind in a free world. I had such a long absent . Most probably due to my work, load with stuffs, and even till now, I try to juggle them up wisely.
Just like to mention a few from the list, my personal tour to europe, my career, my own personal things, my family, my life, my horse, my house near the beach. 
Anyway, things is fine and I’m more than appreciated with the decision which I took earlier on. Yeah, I decided to rest myself from being bounded to any company for a time being, Most probably, because of I’m not good in handled my boredom of stayed in office from 9 – 5 ( yeah, always come late too, .and not forget to mention i have a pretty view in front of me, ) , and due to a few confrontation, controversial happened earlier in office. We are not Rome. but yet, its seem to happened in a very smiliar way .
Well , actually its a tough decision to do ( while I know stable job make me no worry of anything ) . but , no regret, I did it.
Currently, I’m working on my own projects ,handling a various industry, projects from a various type of clients.. Just name it a few, paid2tour, paid2eat ( still under construction), paid2shop ( still under construction), graduan, postgraduan, wrcautolamp, metafour, klma, tathin, hometrik, hometrik jobs, and i hope the list will be keep going on even Im not around for a moment ( away to europe). Not mention about the site which i designed earlier while I’m with The Star for a moment, starproperty.
I’m glad and thanks to God to give me a capability of doing whatever things I do now. I like them extremely, yeah, more than a word can say, when I see some smily face ,happy or whatever you name it to add up a credit to my personal glory. Thanks to help me on that .
I’m optimistically believe , things will be more wonderful next year, and I hope that I ll be more patient, motivated, and inspired to continue my journey, my life and things what I wanna do.
Its too much to say, with my limited time. I’m just so busy doing work, even many of my good companion nearly fail.
Anyway, I ‘ll compile all the list of the things I wanna do in a friendlier platform for everyone. I will share it with my own site. which is currently on the middle of DNS migration, content module study & research, ,and yet, there is still many things to develop.
I have many wonderful things which I would like to share with society, contributing to people, and I wanna make it happen . Not blog, not a cheap story ( people do this and that, gossiping, ) , not a twitter thingy, or social networking stuffs. Something more close, relevant and sincere to you.
Will update more later…
Life is many things..
i left many important things in my life without a word , and most of my word will be recorded here. I just think nothing much to say, when it too much thing to say. Soon, i ll be finishing my list-to-do in this year…hope it will be ok without anything bothering me…
Europe will be near me soon..fly ..fly like a bird..even i hate bird the most…yeah, for no reason…
Not yet booked the flight ticket yet, I just bought travel luggage, i dont started packed anything , and listed what should I bring… I still not started find a new friend in the respective country i planned to go. Many things to settled down on my side here.. work, bloody work and work…
many things…life is many things…
The beginning of the endless : pt.6
I am standing anxiously before an open window on my kitchen, and throw my sight as far as I can. With infinite curiousity of what disturbing my mind, I just feel not right. something seem not really right. I wonder for the thousandth time, why she not answering my call.
Not any second longer, I’m quickly rushing out from my kitchen door, without even bother to shut it off, ..I’m run..run like there is a massive dragon chasing to eat my life. run ..and run..
I cant listened to many things for this moment, but only my heart beat similarly like a grindcore drum beat, which will never make you calm. There is no rhytm for sweet, no rhytm for smile, no rhtym for joy.. its super panic.
Even the walk across to her house is not took so long, but a cloudy sky make things difficult. Wind blew so hard on my face, and suddenly I feel like I’m on the different side of the earth, where there is no single living things are exist, not at all- no bird fly, no cat, no people walk, its me…Evetything look like a movie made in Hollywood, silent….empty and chaos…I run quicker, and yes…its only me…The entire thing seems so improbable..”ah..”
I could not help myself than hate this poemy situation, by everything look melancholic, and I wonder, disloyally almost, is that necessarily to think like this on this moment..i catch my breath fast…like a horse..
I’m just about to pass the lighthouse, which is located only 10 minute opposite to Lizzie’s house.
I keep my speed, and keep running…
The beginning of the endless : pt.5
Lizzie- sensitive, charming, comforting, sweet Lizzie, Lizzie will say something helpful and ignorance. I try to remember what I have been told from her story. Anything what she missed out is always during her husband was around. She oftenly brought up in many things on our conversation about how sweet this and that , every moment , any chapter either secret or not, and it was happen long time ago. Many times, what I could do is listening, and nod dully, and sometimes I have no idea of what she talking about.
When I think of it , it just surprise me, and I really wonder how it feel,and certainly, I would understand it when it come. But i never wish for that,and seriously I have no idea how important of this feelings,.its may sound odd, childish..self indulgent, whatever things you might name it, but when I come to the finale, I heard some stupid song keep echoing into my ears.. ‘lonely, ‘…
I am sitting on my kitchen table, while on my left hand holding a chinese teacup with a flowered lid on it. There are beef, are ready to cook , and the onions, chilli, ginger, salt scattered all over the table. Yes, I still waiting her to come.
It is time, I decide to call her, and i had left two messages on her answering machine, although I know that she must not have gotten them as she always call me back immediately.
” Lizzie,please dont spend your time on make-up, come faster” ..I repeated the recorded message i had for her.
I’m still waiting…
The beginning of the endless : pt.4
“you seem not right this morning..” whats up with that face?” ask me..
“it does sometimes this way..many times im not good to make things right and happy..mm, I wish to have such a barrel of fun at the same times, but no luck…”
” Well, its quite hard to provide a fun..”
” Yeah, it certainly is”..well, nothing serious!, ahh..forget about it, “with a sad eyes, she throw me some hopeless sight. Meanwhile, I took the folk and spoon on the end of the table,which she cleaned it earlier.
I discovered a morning view from her yard is calming, not only that, . We looked over and all we could see was sailboats, and several ferry, leaving and rest on the bay, which made the morning more lively.
“Well, how about you?” dont you planned to return to the world of 9 to 5 ? “
“When? when I said that? ” I replied with concentrating on my spaghetti.
” mm..you don’t look too cheerful about it” , while my eyes goes wild to the sea.Im not sure what make me follows the bird, perhaps waiting something interesting to be happen..
” I didn’t know that” she replied.
” Im not too sure, i dont know the answer to that..”
“why? “
” Halo madam, its only July now.., and I still have a few months to go..” , i dont really plan anything yet, I wish I could do my own things forever here…
“Come on mate, ..drop your ‘madam’ ‘auntie’ from me..or i ll show you something which you ll never think of, and never repeat it again.” .she groan..
“its not stylish..” she added.
“mm, I’m curious of how ‘torture’ is that..” without seeing her i continue my meal.
” mm, how bout I cook for lunch today? ” “ok.ok. no spaghetti, no sardine anymore…believe me, something
more than normal” ..
She nod a few times synically, while her eyes close and rolling up once its open.
mm…will you prefer to be at your house, or mine? I continue my word,.while my mounth half-filled with the spaghetti..”
“well, mm, I prefer not to mess up my kitchen this time ” she winked at me..
” ok , cool”
Im not too sure what should I do with the beef that I bought from Public market last week- located about 20 minutes away from my house.
“…mm, what should I do with thh… “
” shh…I dont want to know what you wanna do, its your call.” she answered…
The Beginning of the endless : pt.3
I’m just away only fifty yards from the shore, but the current and the wave were rudely dispatching me into the direction of the island. I walk fast and actually past gone the lighthouse a couple second ago.
‘Hey riq!” , i heard somenone barked my name. Her name is Lizzie. My neighbour, She stayed here almost 7 years ago, after her husband died in the plane crash on duty. She is sweet lady, in her mid of 30’s.
” Hi Liz!” ,what make you wake up so early? “I shouted back., due the sea rythm, slammed and shattered against the rocks heavily. I’m walking closely to her. Her face look calm and relax.
“I try to catch you to jogging together this morning, but no luck, you were faster” , she said to me while her eyes pointing to the vast of the sea, which will turn brighter, very soon.
” I cant go on!”
“Of course you can!”, I’m yelled back. ’Lets make it next 2 days , ok?”..
“no..is not that, nevermind…anyway, my stomach howled, longing to be refilled , come get something, i still have a yesterday spaghetti, ” she said while start making a move .
” mm…oh yeah, that’s brilliant, but i need to stop by at my house, and get something first, ok?”
” Your nescafe? ” she guessing.
” “Yeah, you know me well auntie Lizzie ” , I replied with my winking eyes.
“Halo, ‘uncle,’ cancel spaghetti ! ” tsss…”
“ok ok, !, wait me awhile!”…i replied shoutly while ignored what has she said.
” Not long!, wait me here!!” I shouted while on the run…
…
The beginning of the endless : pt.2
I could not remember alot of things once my eyes wide open,.as the pale orange sky turn stronger, i dont really like being exposed. No no…not fancy things as vampire with the sun fairy tale. No doubt I’m one of Anne Rice fan, of my lifetime favourite author. I just cant stand of the hotness.
I stood up carefully to get a better view-with the sea being slightly lovely, but im not fancy a swim. I continue my steps , could be hundreds to reach my sweet home.
‘Morning mate!” , yes..its normal to hear that. Its one of the typical scenario i had all this awhile. there is another ‘morning’ as i walk through my little alley to my house. His name is Michael, the owner of the Rasa Sayang beach cafe., It also one of my major food source especially when im in lazy mood for cooking, or run out the idea of what to cook.
” Morning mike! ‘, I reply, and there is no further word. Its pretty normal. Chipping of the birds, while walking on the sand, the melody of the sea. darn…im not doing well in handling loneliness lately. Its unbearable. Continue my steps, ” a good breakfast will help me this morning”…
The beginning of the endless
morning rise again…as usual, i have at least 2 miles to run..run and run..its only 730am…not much people around making a noise..at least, some peoples conservatively think jogging is a good things to do during this time..I wanted to finish up my regular jogging route a few days earlier…but frequently give up by tireness.
Today might be different. Running make me wanted to finish my pieces of thought of my earlier dream. .I still recognised the structure of my dream last night. And i still remember how the door slammed open and the sunrise from my windows making my dream gone. darn….To my surprise, yet, i forgot to lock my door, and let the same guy throw my news source straight to my sleeping area…
work station and sleeping area not really much different for me…In fact, im hardly going to my bed for sleep. Well, my sofa is a good one. I bet you will too.
I still try to remember, how she look..she smiled. with a white dress, and her shyness..why it was dream? several deep breaths make me away awhile from my thought…I stopped and sat on the top of the rock and start to counting. The birds. Im usually hate them. dont ask me why, until u see what they are capable of .
I lean my body on the rock, and listening the explosive rhytm of the shore. My eyes close tight, at least for a few seconds…
